Michael

So today is a joy-ess, but also a sad day. (No not talking about the so called end of the world, but will cover that tomorrow) Today is my brother's 20th birthday. It is sad because he's no longer with us to celebrate. I've already done my crying, well bawling I should say. A little bit yesterday too because something funny happened & I could just pictured his smile, which made me cry because I miss that smile so much. He didn't smile much, but when he did it was amazing.
The new song by Justin Moore-If Heaven Weren't So Far Away, really spoke to me today. Because if Heaven weren't so far away I'd be there right now celebrating his birthday with him.
It's been 7 months, but still feels like a fresh cut.


I miss you Little Brother. And love you very much, just wish you would have known that. See you later, but not now.

Okay so the business with the brand new, now broken car, is driving us nuts. Mainly Spencer since he has to deal with most of it. Okay so he filled a claim under the other guy thing yesterday, and found out that the guy, who hit him, who received a citation from the MP's, stating that he was a fault, and stating that he ran a red light, was telling his insurance company (same insurance as us) that he didn't run a red light. But the funny part is, he told his insurance person, that he got a citation.
*dumbasses everywhere*
Got a call this morning, and thankfully, the car rental place is going to honor the price for the car, so we can keep it. I'll be talking to Spencer in a lil' bit, after he wakes up, about seeing if we can switch. Maybe. I like the rental we got. He received a convertible. Ah, I'm in love. LOL

In all the madness of everything after a year of wishing, hoping, waiting, waiting, and continue to wait. I finally got my car fixed. Sad, took this long, and in order for it to get fixed the new car had to break. Ugh!
Now we are waiting to hear from not only the insurance company, but also the car dealer ship to see when we can get another car. For a moment there yesterday we were only able to receive 95% of the damage payback, which would put us to still pay of what we owe, and until we pay that back, we couldn't get another car. Thankfully we don't have to do that, well, I dunno. Still have to wait to hear from people. Hopefully we can get a new car soon. If we can't get the same car, we are thinking of getting a truck. But hopefully get the same car so we can save on gas mileage.

Hershey the Guinea Pig

We have added a new addition to the family. Hershey.

Opps...lol....got caught ^^^^^^


Craigslist had him up on the Free section. Apparently he's aggressive towards other guinea pigs. So they had to let him go. Not sure on how old he is. This will also be a good thing for Hayden. Something more to interact with other than a fish. Told Hayden that if we get him, he's gonna have to help take care of it. He agreed.

Wam, Bam

I would have posted this yesterday but Blogger was doing an update thingy. Pictures would be up later.

Two days ago our brand new car that we haven't made a single payment on yet got into 2 accidents. The 1st one DH made out to be more than it was.When the other guy was backing out of a parking spot he hit our car (parking lot)

He came home to take his meds, & eat, and then go back to work. I was able to look at the so called scratch that the other guy did, I could barley see it. Well as soon as he got back to work, they sent him home. I thought awesome.

He called me and as soon as he hung up, he stopped at a red light, waited a few seconds and the light turned green. As the safe driver as he is, he waited a few seconds and started to move. A guy, obviously running a red light and obviously speeding, slammed into my husband on the front passenger side & literally F@#$ing up the car. Having the air bags go off. The other guy's car only had bumper damage. (Oh, and he was on the phone, but the cops couldn't prove it)

My husband is a recovering TBI patient (tramatic brain injury), so they took him to the hospital & gave him a CT scan, and it came up clear so sent him home. So now we have 2 claims, and so having the other guys insurance get us a new car. Because this is B.S. Today I've gotta get my car up & running a lil' more & then go deal with our car in the junk yard, take pictures, etc.

Just a fun filled day for me!

Pt.3 Conclusion

So this head injury he had from "his" last jump has effected him badly. This short term memory thing doesn't seem to be getting better. Because of the fact that I was talking to him about Mother's Day being Sunday the day before, and he still forgot. I understand his situation so I'm not pissed off, or angry, I'm just hurt. Like I said on my previous post, my feelings are hurt.
I ended up reminding him after almost half the day (that we've been awake) has passed. I eventually told him that "I was doing NOTHING today"...and he, sounding surprised, "I'm can tell". I asked him if he knew what today was, and he stopped, ducked his head, and mumbled "Shit". He knew.....
He told me he was Sorry, and he felt like an a**hole. I accepted his apology but still didn't forgive him.
I'm not really big on tattle telling on my husband on the internet, but he hurt my feelings. Yes, I know it wasn't my birthday, or our anniversary. But Mother's Day is a big this for me. It's to celebrate me, being a mommy.

(I knew yesterday wasn't gonna turn out good)

Pt. 2

I am not to big on gushing over diamonds or purses. But I expected something, kinda like a Happy Mother's Day dear wife. Since Spencer has been up, ( 2 hours) I haven't gotten any suggestion that he remembers today is Mother's Day. I'm no so much mad at him, but my feelings are hurt.
So far this morning, I have not been able to sleep in, where he has. I have bagged up the trash, unloaded & loaded the dishwasher, told my son to do multiple things. And for what, nothing to be appreciated. This is my day to be appreciated & I'm getting the complete opposite. I'm not expecting bubble baths, back massage, breakfast in bed, etc, but a simple Happy Mother's Day. But so far, nothing, but a headache.

Happy Mother's Day to me.

Happy Mother's Day!!

Now if real life can only be like this, my Mother's Day would be amazing. Hahahaha, not gonna happen.
But I want to wish all the Mom's, Mommy's, Mommies, Mother's, To-Be's.....A Happy Mother's Day!! Ya'll are all great in my book.

Before I was a Mom

I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night .

I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep .

I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom .

I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy .

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

May you always be overwhelmed by the Grace of God rather than by the cares of life.

Justice Has Come

So the time has finally come. 10 years, 2 wars, 919,967 deaths & $1,188,263,000,000 & we managed to kill the one person who started it all. Last night as I was heading to bed, I did one last look at my Facebook on my phone, as I always do. I noticed people's statuses stating that Bin Laden has been killed. I thought, is this a joke?! So I jumped off my phone & switched to the computer. Yup, everyone's statuses were saying that. Went to Yahoo, and noticed that it was the Breaking News. Spencer turned on the T.V. to CNN (i think) and we confirmed it once again.

As a military wife, I feel very, very strongly about this. Not only am I happy that he's dead, but families of the 9/11 Victims finally have Justice. And Yes, Justice is the correct word, no where in the sense cheesy. Yes, the war is not over, and yes it took 10 years to get to this point but it's one step closer to a long road. A lot of lives were lost on 9/11, and a lot of more lives were lost during the war, but now those families can rest in peace knowing that the one person who started this whole mess, causing those deaths, is finally dead. And I believe that it is something to celebrate.

Yes, it is possible that someone will take his place. But we just proved that Justice will be answered for. And if anyone who tries to do this again, you will be caught, you will be punished for it, and you will die.


Here is a poem I guess you would call it, that I copied from one of my Facebook friends. I thought it was really neat.

"Now I lay me down to sleep, one less terrorist this world does keep. With all my heart, I give my thanks, to those in uniform regardless of ranks. You serve our country and serve it well, with humble hearts your stories tell. So as I rest my weary eyes, while freedom rings our flag still flies. You give your all, do what you must... with God we live and God we trust, Amen"